I found a martyr in my bed

It is 10.35am and I am sitting in church service, too distracted to pay attention. Pastor is talking about forgiveness. How we should forgive others and forgetting is not forgiveness and quoting examples from the bible for justification. If only forgiving yourself was as easy as he makes it sound. Especially when you find a never ending list of reminders of how brutally flawed you are. This sounds like a whole load of self-pity. Being so vulnerable to every whim was never what I was taught to do and I wish I could do better than this

Shall come up with a list of things I really want right now maybe striking things off will be of some help


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